Today I have started to heal

Today is the first day of the month and in three weeks I'll be turning 30. June 11th I'll be starting a new job, in a new environment, and I'll officially have a new start. I know that in the bible 30 is a milestone and I am sure this year will be better for me and my family. I still cry for my parents. I still ache for my mom. I can't talk about her at this point in my grief without breaking down. Today I wept; I grieved for my parents, I grieved for the person I used to be, and I grieved for other people who have come and gone in my life. Today, most importantly, I have forgiven myself and opened myself up to allow my spirit to begin to heal.